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I spent the rest of the two classes outside comforting Shamsa. I've never seen her like this before. She was drowning in her own tears. Could someone really cry that much? We sat down outside class in our ditching area, and had water and tissues all over the floor. Shamsa buried her head in her hands and rocked back and forth, sobbing as she did so, the tears streaming down her face. Her cheeks were wet as i whipped the tears away. "Shamsa please stop crying" i demanded. She cried even more and placed her hands on her heart, protecting it from shattering into pieces. I patted her back and tried my best to calm her down. She felt helpless and worthless, that's the effect of love. It makes the strongest person weak, and the weakest person strong. What's even harder than falling in love was falling out of it. Shamsa already fell deep in the whole of love, the deep tunnel of both joy and misery. Hamdan walked up the stairs and caught sight of Shamsa crying. He looked at me with his eyebrows jumbled in confusion. "Shamsa are you okay?" he asked with sympathy. She didn't reply, and neither did i. "Hamdan it's okay, go to class Habibi" i stated with a smile. I walked towards him as he was leaving and whispered in his ear. "Talk to Nayef, and let him fix this mess" i whispered. "Okay" he replied and left a quick kiss on my cheek.

It was the end of the day and i walked Shamsa towards her driver's car. As she was opening the door, she spotted Nayef placing Angelica in his car. Shamsa felt weak, and suddenly fell to the floor. I ran to her and carried her up. "Shamsa! Shamsa!" I yelled at the top of my lungs. I patted her cheeks and tried opening her eyes. She wasn't waking up or speaking. I spotted Hamdan crossing the street so i called him. He ran towards us and sat on the floor in shock. He got out a bottle of water and spilled some water on her face. She didn't even nudge. He stood up and saw Khalaf talking on the phone outside the car. He ran towards him, and told him what happened. Khalaf dropped his phone when he heard what happened and he ran towards us with Hamdan. "Shamsaaaaa!" he screamed. He was trembling from fear, sweat was drizzling down his forehead, and he was panicking. "What have i done to her?" he yelled. Her driver called the ambulance to come as soon as possible to take her to the hospital. Khalaf tried spraying perfume on his hand and put it to her nose so she would wake up but she didn't. We were all frightened, and certainly didn't know what to do. The ambulance was heard as it was making it's way towards us. The flashing blue and red lights and loud sirens were the school's main attention now. It parked next to Shamsa's driver's car and they pulled out the gurney and placed her on it. I went in and sat next to her.  The ambulance was filled with many medical tools, boxes, drawers, and handles. They immediately put an oxygen mask on her nose and mouth to regulate her breathing cycle. They also checked her blood pressure, and found out she had high blood pressure.

We reached the hospital and they took her to the emergency room. We were back to the same spot we were in when Hamdan had his accident. We all sat down, and were all worried. "It's all your fault!" i shouted at Khalaf. "I know!" he yelled back with anger. "Khaloof, why did you do such a sick move to her?" "you know she loves you" Hamdan stated to him. "I don't know, okay, i don't know!" Khalaf shouted. "So where's she now?" i asked in a rude way. "I told her i had an emergency and left her in school" Khalaf replied. "But why? why didn't you go out with her?"i said sarcastically. "Cause i love Shamsa" he replied with honesty. "Oh really? why didn't you think of that before talking to Angelica?" i asked. He didn't reply, just put his head down in shame. "Khaloof, when they allow us to see her go in and apologise" Hamdan mentioned to Khalaf. "Yea and i'll go get her flowers, Layla can you come with me so you can help me pick some for her?" he asked me. "Yea okay" i answered. "Don't take your time, and don't test my patience!" Hamdan mentioned before i walked away with Khalaf. We walked towards the flower shop, and it had all sorts of flowers. From daisies to roses, from tulips to sunflowers, and from red roses to white roses. "Hmm, what do you think she'll like?" Khalaf questioned me. "I think you should get her red and white roses" i replied. He told the worker to wrap up a bunch of red and white roses and wrote a card. He held the bouquet of beautiful white and bloody red roses and walked back to her room.

"The nurse says she's awake now, Khalaf go in" Hamdan stated as we got to her room. He walked in slowly towards her room, and opened the door. Their eyes caught sight, and smiles were drawn on their faces. Shamsa turned her head to show that she didn't want to talk to Khalaf. "Hey babe" he stated with a shy voice as he gave her the bouquet. "Thanks" she replied sharply. "I'm sorry Habibti" he uttered. "Sorry isn't enough, i want to know the reason why you did that to me?" Shamsa stated. "I don't know" he yelled. Shamsa jumped from fear and tears started rolling down her face. "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, i didn't mean to scare you like that my love" Khalaf said with affection. He reached for cheek and planted a kiss on it. "I'm jealous from the moon that gets to know all your midnight thoughts and secrets, your sheets cause they get to touch every part of you as you fall asleep, but the sun is the luckiest cause when you're half asleep, groggy, and unaware of how beautiful you look, the sun kisses you with it's sunlight, i'm jealous " She said to him as she was battling with her tears. "I love you and will always love you" Khalaf replied with a kiss on the palm of her hand. "I promise you, i will never hurt you again, i promise" he stated as he was pleading her to forgive him. "Don't brake me, for my heart is just a fragile glass that could be shattered at any moment" she stated. "I will cherish your heart cause your love is running through my veins" he uttered.

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There was a Syrian girl in our Arabic class named Sara who was very annoying. She was very white, had huge blue eyes, blonde hair, and was very loud. Everything about her irritated us and Goum Khalaf. Goum Khalaf  loved making fun of her, it was the joy of their life. She began with her annoying comments and sketchy jokes. I laughed at some of her lame jokes so she would eventually stop, but she didn't. Hamdan kept staring at me and smiling. "Look at her smile, and that laugh agh" he said in front of everyone. All eyes were on me as he was staring in my direction. "I love your laugh" he mentioned with his mesmerising smile. I felt really embarrassed so i just smiled. Sara kept commenting and talking about silly things, and i was getting really bothered. Hamdan noticed the fact that i was irritated by her, so he started with his comments too. "Ay ay ay Sara, look at your face" he stated with disgust. Shamsa and Hamda both went to get some food from the canteen at that time, but i stayed in class. Khalaf sat next to me and started talking to me about random things. People started grabbing their chairs and sitting next to Khalaf. We all formed a column in the back, and i was the only girl there. Hamdan kept looking at me, until he got his chair and kept trying to squish it between me and Khalaf. There was no space, there was some space near Khalaf on the other side, but he insisted on sitting next to me. "Shh" Sara decided to reply to Hamdan. "Excuse me? Don't shh me. Who do you think you are?" Hamdan answered. "I'm Sara" she said coldly. "Please snow white, spare me, look at yourself in the mirror then come talk to me!"he uttered. "You look just like Ostriches' poop" he said finally. Wow i thought, how rude of him. We all hated her, but that was just rude. "Look at Layla, look at her" Hamdan said while pointing at me. "Look at her eyes, look at them, look, look" he mentioned to Khalaf while nudging him. "You know Khalaf, if i woke up at night and saw snow white i'd scream and shout." "But if i saw Layla i'd sit down and stare at her till the sun goes up." he uttered. I started blushing and turned away from everyone's sight.

Shamsa and Hamda came back, and i filled them in on what happened in Arabic. They were clapping and cheering for me, and we all couldn't stop laughing. Khalaf came our way and pulled Shamsa from her arm and took her away. "What's up with him?" i asked Nayef as he was approaching us. "No idea, but he seems mad" he replied. I shrugged and went back to class. Nayef was talking to Hamda and smiling. I never saw him this happy before, actually i've never seen him smile. He reached for his pocket and took something out and gave it to Hamda. It was a small red box, and had a small card attached to it. She waved good bye to him, and ran to me. "He gave me something!" Hamda yelled. "What is it?" i asked. "I don't know" she said while placing the box on my table. "Open it" i uttered. She opened the small red box to present a silver charm that had her initials engraved on it. "It's beautiful" she said while covering her mouth. "It is! Mabrook Habibti, put it on" i commented. I attached it to her bracelet and she went to thank Nayef.

I sat alone in class, wondering about Shamsa and Khalaf, and was thinking about Hamdan. I could write a thousand pages about Hamdan's laugh or the way his eyes look when he watches me. I could tell a thousand people about his smile or the way his texting sucks at two in the morning. I could sing a thousand songs about his lips and how his fingers make me feel. I'd rather be silent and keep him all to myself because sharing has never been my strong point. Someone suddenly covered my eyes with their hands. I put my hands over the person's hands as i was awakened by them. I felt a kiss on both of my hands, then a kiss on my neck. I removed the hands from my eyes, and looked up to find him. The man of my dreams, the one who makes my heart flutter, my stomach tumble, and my pupils dilate. "How are you Boo?" Hamdan questioned. "I'm good you?" i stated. "I'm seeing heaven in front of me right know, how do you think i feel?" he mentioned with a big smile. I laughed and squeezed his cheek. "I love you" i whispered to myself. "Haaaaa, ha, ha, what did you say?" he yelled while jumping. "Nothing" i said with a big smile. "Say it again" he said while holding my hands. "I love you" i said while looking into his eyes. "I love you more than anything in this world, i love you to the moon and back, i love you till the end of time" he yelled at the top of his lungs. I started laughing and so did he. "You're crazy!" i screamed out. "You made me crazy" he said while hugging me.

Khalaf walked into the class while slamming the door, and Shamsa was walking behind him with tears in her eyes. "What's wrong" i asked her immediately. "Nothing" she replied. I took her by the hand and told Hamdan to talk to Khalaf. I took her out of class and forced her to talk. She began to cry. "Shamsa, it's okay, just tell me what he did to you?" i asked. She didn't reply, just drowned herself in tears. "Boo, calm down and tell me what's wrong?" "I..I..I..I saw Khalaf next to the bathroom with Angelica and she was playing with his hair, and he was laughing" She managed to say while crying. 

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It was a beautiful morning, i dressed up in my school uniform and i was off to school. As soon as i reached school, i went to our spot. Shamsa and Hamda were already there, i greeted them and we started talking. We had 15 minutes for the bell to ring, so we went to the bathroom to check how we look. Perfection is what we craved for. Shamsa was having a little trouble with her hair, so she remained in the bathroom for another 10 minutes. When she was done we walked to the school campus. The tall bald ex-soldier known as Mr. Rani already made people stand in the late line. "Layla, Shamsa, and Hamda yalla join the line" he yelled. We giggled and joined the line. We always ran away, but he would always catch us. We stood in the line and talked till we saw Nayef, Hamdan, and Khalaf walk towards the line. Khalaf walked in with his hair all messy, his Gucci black shoes, and a black Armani bag. Hamdan had his hair neatly brushed, a jump with every step while wearing his MBT shoes. He was carrying a Louis Vuitton bag and smoke was coming out of his mouth blurting a smile. Nayef was wearing black Tod's, with a black Gucci bag. They came to us and shook hands with all three of us. They asked us why we were late, and we asked them as well.

After some time, we got our late slips from Mr. Rani, and we went to class. Shamsa, Hamda, and I were in the same class, and Hamdan, Khalaf, and Nayef were in another class too. We walked in class, and went to our seats in the far end of the class. Shamsa sat next to me, and Hamda sat infront of us next to a girl called Sara. We had Chemistry first, and it was super boring. The teacher was one of the strictest in the whole school, we weren't allowed to talk or even breathe as she says. Time used to go so slow, like the world froze. All we were waiting for was Arabic class. After a long boring Chemistry class we had English. English was mainly a free class, the teacher would tell us the story of her life. She would also give us time to write our journals. In our journals we wrote everything we did in our daily life, everything in details. We took very good care of them, our future was all in the few pages we wrote. After English we had Math. We never attended Math class, the teacher himself used to tutor us at Shamsa's house. He never asked us why we never attended, and we would always get an 80+ in our tests and quizzes. We left the class after telling him we needed to use the bathroom. "Let's get some food!" Shamsa stated. "We have recess next, we'll eat then" i mentioned. "Come on, i'm hungry" She continued. "Okay, let's go" i stated. We went down the stairs to the canteen to get food. Shamsa ordered three cheese sandwiches and three strawberry/apple juices. We walked up the stairs and sat down in a hidden area behind our class and the staircase. Everyone ditched there, especially goum Khalaf and us.

We sat and ate on the floor, then talked about random things. Khalaf walked out of his class, and walked towards us. "Hala hala!" he said with a smile. We all said hi, and he kissed Shamsa on her forehead."How are you Habibti?" Khalaf questioned. "I'm good, you?" Shamsa replied. "I'm good as long as you're good" he said uttered with a big smile. "I'm going to get  a sandwich and i'll come back, anyone wants anything?" he aslked. "No thanks" we all replied. He went down the stairs, skipping so many steps with his long legs. "I wonder where Hamdan is" i stated. "Ask Khaloof when he comes back" Shamsa commented. Moments later, Khalaf was back with a big bite in his mouth, and two sandwiches in his hand. He raised his eyebrows and sat on the floor with us. "Where are Hamdan and Nayef?" i asked. "They're both sleeping" he said while laughing. We all laughed with him and began to talk. His eyes were on Shamsa all the time, like no one mattered but her. When we fall in love we don't realize it. We just like that person, and eventually we start defending them, and get jealous if they talk to another person. We always want to be with them because they make our crappy loves worth living for  a few hours a day. They take our pain away; make us laugh, make us mad, make us sad, embarrassed. But no matter what they make us feel, we are coming back for more. That's just how love is.

We had recess and it was a 40 minutes break for eating and talking. We sat on our bench and people came to us and talked to us. After recess, we had Arabic finally. The recess bell rang and we were off to Arabic to get our places at the back. The teacher and half the class were already in class, but ofcourse goum Khalaf were still not there. We sat in our seats in the last row, and waited for the three. The teacher started the class, and 10 minutes later Khalaf walked in with confidence saying "Hala Hala Hala!" at the top of his voice. Nayef and Hamdan both walked in after him with smiles on their face. They sat in the last row opposite us. The teacher started swearing at them and play fighting with them. She loved them so much, cause they flirted with her and always teased her. She hated when they gave the three of us attention, like she was jealous or something. Mrs. Mona started explaining a new lesson, and we were all daydreaming, and staring. Khalaf ripped out a paper from his book, wrote something on it, and made it into an airplane. He threw is to Shamsa, and she jumped from surprise. She looked at it and read "To the moon and back". She looked at Khalaf and smiled. 

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"Let go of me!" i yelled. "I won't, unless you tell me why you're ignoring me" Hamdan replied still holding my arm. "Hamdan! Go out!" i screamed. He pushed me on the bed and told me to be quiet. "I go crazy when you lie to me and when you don't tell me where you're going." "Do i have to follow your every move to know where you are?" he asked. "You make me so mad!" he continued. "The guys told me not to tell you cause it was for your best" i replied. "I don't care what they think, next time you tell me or i swear i won't let you go out ever again." he uttered with anger. "Fine" i replied. I got up from the bed and went to get some water from the mini fridge. He put his arms around me from the back and began to plot kisses on my neck. I was feeling this sensation tingling in my stomach. I pulled away and turned to face him. "How am i supposed to resist you looking like this?" he asked with a smirk. I smiled and said "well, you have to." A knock was heard on the door, and i pushed Hamdan inside the bathroom and closed the door. I opened the door and it was Khalaf. "Hey" i said with a nervous tone. If any of them caught Hamdan in my room, they'd suspect something. "Hey, are you okay, i heard you screaming" he asked. "Everything's okay, umm i broke a nail" i lied. He began to laugh then said goodbye and left. Before i closed the door, "Layla, Layla have you seen Hamdan?""He isn't in his room" Khalaf barged in. "Umm no i haven't seen him" i replied with hesitation. "Okay good night" he stated. I went to the bathroom, opened the door, and found Hamdan sleeping in the bathtub. I started laughing and couldn't stop. I calmed myself down and woke him up. "Hamdan, habibi why don't you sleep in my bed and i'll sleep on the couch?" i said. "No no, i'll go back to my room before they think far." he replied. "Okay good night" i stated with a big smile. "Sleep tight Habibti" he stated while kissing me on my forehead.

I woke up, dressed up and headed downstairs. "Good morning Layla" Nayef stated with a smile. He looked good with his clean face, blue shorts, and white linen shirt. "Where's everyone?" i asked. "They're all sleeping, why don't you go wake them up while i tell Gloria and Maria to make us breakfast" he stated. "Okay" i answered. I walked up the long stairs to the girl's rooms first. I knocked on their rooms, walked in, opened the curtains, and jumped on their beds to wake them up. As soon as they woke up we went to wake the boys up. Shamsa slowly opened Khalaf's room door and walked in. The walls covered with floral prints, and white curtains covering the huge windows. She walked towards the curtains and opened them. "Good Morning Habibi" she uttered. She pulled the bed covers off him, to show his tan muscly figure. She eyed him from his hairy legs, Calvin Klein pink boxers, his bronze broad back, and his curly brown hair. She bent down on her knees and played with his hair. "Khalaf, wake up!" she said in his ears. He woke up and smiled, "Good Morning beautiful" he said with his sexy sleepy voice. He held her hand and planted a kiss. "Yalla, breakfast is almost ready, meet you downstairs" she mentioned with a smile. "Stay with me while i change" he narrated. "Okay but quick." Shamsa stated.

Hamda went down to sit with Nayef and I went to wake Hamdan up. I knocked on the door, and barged in. "Hamdan, It's time to wake up" i said. "Wakey wakey!" i yelled. I opened the curtains, and jumped on his bed. "Wake up Hamdan!" i shouted. He wasn't waking up. "Hamdan!" He wasn't waking up so i knelt down and pulled the cover off his face. "Hamdan" i said while touching his cheek. He didn't move or wake up. Then suddenly he pulled me on his bed, and started tickling me. I was super ticklish and couldn't stop laughing, he couldn't stop laughing too and he seemed to be enjoying it. "Stop it, stop it!" i managed to say while laughing. He stopped and kissed me on the cheek, "good morning sunshine." "Come on I'm starving and breakfast is done, change and come downstairs, yalla" i uttered.

After some time we all sat down in the back garden viewing the back pool. We ate our breakfast which was a selection of fresh breads, French baked goods, all sorts of juices, and different kinds of cheeses imported from Holland. We packed our things and we were ready to go back to our homes. Tomorrow we were going back to school. We were lucky enough to have a week holiday which came at the right time. It was going to be weird trying to act normal between each one of us after all that happened. We had to manage our feelings and emotions so that people wouldn't speculate anything. Khalaf and Shamsa were going together, I was going with Hamdan, and Hamda was going with Nayef since there was an extra car in his mansion. We said our goodbye's, and thank you's and we were off.