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Walking up the stairs with his sister guiding me to his room. I opened the door of his room, and walked into a big room with big windows and gold curtains. His room was filled with gold and white, and had modern yet classic furniture. I walked towards his perfume section and smelt one of his perfumes. I couldn't help but tear, it was the perfume he put to school. The very same scent he had when i first met him, and the one he ended up in the hospital with. I put it down slowly and wiped my tears with my sleeves. I walked to his closet and opened it. I was impressed by how neat it was. Kandoras in one  closet, pants and shirts in another. Shoes, slippers, and sandals in another small closet too. The maid walked in with 2 big suitcases so we could pack some clothes for Hamdan. I took out 4 Kandoras, 5 polo shirts, and 3 pairs of jeans. I told the maid to get his boxers and undershirts. I added matching shoes, a pair of slippers and sandals too. As i was getting him pyjamas too, something fell to the floor. I picked it up and flipped it to find a picture of myself. It was my school picture. I kept staring at it for a while till someone woke me up from my thoughts. "Hamdan always tells me about you, you are Layla right?" his maid said. "Yea" i said with agreement. "Why are you crying, Madam?" she asked. "I miss him" i replied. His sister ran in the room, "Why are you taking Hamdan's clothes?" she asked. "Hamdan's going to travel for a few days and asked me to pack his clothes" i replied. "Why didn't he kiss me goodbye, he always does?" she asked with sadness in her voice. "Habibti, he asked me to kiss you goodbye instead of him" "He also told me to tell you he loves you very much" I lied while giving her a hug. We closed the bags and put them in the driver's car. I sat in the back seat and we were off to the hospital. Hamdan once introduced me to his driving by calling him Winnie the Pooh. I always laughed when i saw him. It was Pooh that was driving me to the hospital. "Hala Layla, how are you doing?" he asked. "I'm good, how are you?" i answered. "I'm very sad about Hamdan's news" he replied. He turned on the radio and it was the CD he was last playing. I held the pain in, and just smiled.

When we reached the hospital i took the bags and walked towards his room. Shamsa ran to me and hugged me, "let me help you" she said. She took one of the bags and walked me to the room. As soon as i got to his room, i saw Khalaf, Nayef, Hamda, and Hamdan's mother sitting outside. "God bless you my daughter" his mother stated with tears still rolling down her eyes. "This is the least i could do, auntie" i replied with a smile. "You haven't eaten anything for 24 hours, you have to eat something!" Khalaf interrupted. "No thanks, I'm not hungry" i answered. Shamsa grabbed Khalaf from his arm and they were off to the canteen to get food. I kept staring at them, Khalaf slowly making his way to Shamsa's hand. They were walking hand in hand, with smiles across their faces. I was glad that some of us were smiling. Hamda was sitting next to Nayef and he was teaching her how to play temple run. So i sat next to Hamdan'a mother and tried to calm her down. Soon Shamsa and Hamdan came back with bags of food for everyone. All sorts of foods and drinks were served, but i didn't have the appetite to eat. Everyone dove into the bags to get some food, but i remained still. Khalaf was feeding Shamsa and she fed him too, it was the cutest scene i've seen in a while. I stood up to get some water to drink, and got another cup of water. I slowly yet quietly opened the door to Hamdan's room.

 As i walked in, i grabbed a chair and put it near his bed. I put the other cup of water that was meant for him on the bedside table. He wasn't moving, all you could hear was his heartbeat on the heart monitor. His face was very pale, but it was clear from any blood stains just some scratches. His body looked very frail and weak. I didn't cry this time, i looked at him and felt comfort. Slowly and carefully as to touch glass, i ran my fingertips on his soft cheeks. "Hi Hamdan" i whispered. "I hope you're doing well, you look handsome as usual."i laughed."I miss you so much, i miss the way you say my name, the way you look at me with your big brown eyes,  and your smile that always has its way of making me smile" i said. I held his hand, and put my favourite ring in his hand. "The next time i will ever wear this ring would be when you wake up and put it on my finger" i mentioned. I slowly kissed him on his cheek, and the heart monitor started speeding again. I left as soon as it happened avoiding any trouble. I walked out quietly so no one would know i was in since visitors weren't allowed. As i walked back to them, "Where were you, we were so worried about you!" Shamsa yelled. "I was in the bathroom" i lied with a smile. We all sat down and the nurse walked towards us. "Hello, you are all here with Mr. Hamdan?" "Yes" we all replied at once. "I have news about his situation, the check up results came in" she said with a serious tone.